Hey all! I’m SO sorry that I haven’t posted on here for ages. If I’m honest, I’ve been extremely uninspired recently and I find myself spending a lot of time thinking. Thinking about myself and what I want to achieve have been my main thoughts but I’ve just been thinking about life in general. I recently went to America as many of you know from instagram with the main aim being my to attend my Aunties 50th birthday in Texas. I believe the saying that ‘Travel is the only thing that you spend money on that makes you richer’ is a true one. I feel like this trip, unexpectedly did a lot for my character and produced a lot of self awareness for me. It definitely highlighted my short patience (something I need to work on) as well as my over expressive facial expressions when I have bad thoughts about something LOL!
On our way back we unfortunately received some tragic news that really left me in a place of contemplation. My contemplative thoughts were orientated around happiness and how we as humans are able to control our minds. Firstly, I concluded that happiness is definitely something that we humans take for granted and sometimes downplay. Sometimes, we don’t even realise that we are unhappy as we are so used to prentending to be alright as well as replying that we’re okay to those who emptily ask us even when we’re not. Sometimes, we are even guilty of asking others how they are without even caring for their real response. Essencially we don’t care because, we don’t want to help deal with someone else’s burden. We as humans can become extremely self entilted and nearly always don’t want to deal with someone elses unsolicited stress because we belive our problems are somewhat more important. Not only that, we as humans are so afraid of telling others that things are not okay with us because we don’t want to burden our recipients or let them in on the things that we are suffering with. I think we are also obsessed with making our lives seemingly look like we have our shit together when really we are crumbling inside and are desperate for help.