This battle that I’m having with endometriosis is a traitorous one. For some delusional reason, I thought that after my surgery, I would just bounce back into a reformed version of my old self and I would be able to live my best life, do all the things as well as eat all of the things. I can’t believe how wrong I was and still am.
My journey to recovery has been far from easy. I’ve gone from having good days to bad days then from good hours to bad hours and really, I’m trying not to take as much medication because I feel as though my livelihood runs on it and that feeling terrifies me.
But, I have succumbed to reality and realised that my prescribed codeine laced medicinals are the only things getting me through work, meetings and the 101 blog related emails that I have to reply to. I have come to realise that the world definitely does not stop and wait for you to recover.
The whole experience has really taught me to appreciate good health as well as appreciate those who care for me and check up on me at any given opportunity. I really cannot wait to get to my old self and produce the content that I have been planning to.
The experience has also made me reflect on life a lot as well as my relationships with people. It’s allowed me to re-evaluate who I am, what I stand for and what kind of character I have and want to have and how I can change my self for the better.
Mentally, I’m changing a lot and it’s definitely something that I believe is coming with age as well as this experience. Taking time out has given me a lot of time to re-evalute my wrongs and take the correct steps forward in correcting said wrongs.
I really believe my illness has changed me a lot. It’s been a very scary and emotional ride for me as well as all of my family and friends but I’m thankful that it’s made me a better and more appreciative person.