Outfits

Oh So Tired

21st Sep 15

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This battle that I'm having with endometriosis is a traitorous one. For some delusional reason, I thought that after my surgery, I would just bounce back into a reformed version of my old self and I would be able to live my best life, do all the things as well as eat all of the...

This battle that I’m having with endometriosis is a traitorous one. For some delusional reason, I thought that after my surgery, I would just bounce back into a reformed version of my old self and I would be able to live my best life, do all the things as well as eat all of the things. I can’t believe how wrong I was and still am.

My journey to recovery has been far from easy. I’ve gone from having good days to bad days then from good hours to bad hours and really, I’m trying not to take as much medication because I feel as though my livelihood runs on it and that feeling terrifies me.

But, I have succumbed to reality and realised that my prescribed codeine laced medicinals are the only things getting me through work, meetings and the 101 blog related emails that I have to reply to. I have come to realise that the world definitely does not stop and wait for you to recover.

The whole experience has really taught me to appreciate good health as well as appreciate those who care for me and check up on me at any given opportunity. I really cannot wait to get to my old self and produce the content that I have been planning to.

The experience has also made me reflect on life a lot as well as my relationships with people. It’s allowed me to re-evaluate who I am, what I stand for and what kind of character I have and want to have and how I can change my self for the better.

Mentally, I’m changing a lot and it’s definitely something that I believe is coming with age as well as this experience. Taking time out has given me a lot of time to re-evalute my wrongs and take the correct steps forward in correcting said wrongs.

I really believe my illness has changed me a lot. It’s been a very scary and emotional ride for me as well as all of my family and friends but I’m thankful that it’s made me a better and more appreciative person.

Shirt – ASOS

Skirt – ASOS

Shoes – Christian Louboutin

Socks – ASOS

Bag – Chanel

 Bracelet – Celine 

  • Wish you luck with your recovery! Your outfit looks great but all I’m seeing is that beautiful Celine bracelet

    Agnes x

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    • melswardrobe

      Thanks so much Agnes. It’s my favourite thing ever xxx

  • I just discovered your blog.. I’m sorry to hear what you’ve gone and are still going through. I hope you do recover fully and quickly!

    Love your outfit! And those gorgeous heels! 🙂

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    • melswardrobe

      So glad that you came across it!! Thank you so much.Everyday is another step towards great health! Thanks for caring it means a lot xx

  • Moji

    Hi Melissa

    Hope you are feeling much better now. I have been through endometriosis aswell had the surgery and can definitely relate to what you are going through. I can assure you that it is worth it in the end. I no longer suffer any of the symptoms. I Pray God gives you strength to get through this difficult period.

    Please keep up the good work on your blog. Do you do styling classes if there is such a thing X

    • melswardrobe

      Thanks so mcuh Moji, It’s nice to talk to someone who has been through it to. You’re right it’s getting better and I can feel a lot of change internally. The surgery was such a blessing. Thanks so much for your support Ufortunately I dont do styling classes but I may do somethign similar on YouTube xxx

  • Mandy

    Melissa I think you found the perfect back drop without even knowing lol. The grey brick wall & floor in gorg with this contrast against skin and ur outfits.
    In between running round hustling and little time to squeeze in photo shoots all I have around me is red brick walls lol but dame it England . What happened to white painted walls

    • melswardrobe

      LOOOL I’m going to switch it up next year though! I don’t want things to become too samey samey and to tell the truth, I’m becoming a bit too addicted to the concrete wall. It’s true though – so hard to find good places to shoot!