Jobless Or a Job Less?

31st May 16


You Can't Be Faithful And Fearful

Hello everyone!

Wow, it’s been such a long time since I’ve had time to actually sit down and blog and it feels great since there has been so much on my mind of late and I really wanted to share it all with you. It’s best if I just dive right in. My employment contract was terminated (in March) from the Law firm that I was working for for the last year or so. I think it had a lot to do with me always being sick and somewhat unreliable because of my awful endometriosis so even though at the time I was quite upset, I understand now that it wasn’t the easiest for my employers to deal with. In a way I’m glad that they made that decision.

I wasn’t going to be out of work at all, in fact I had three other jobs lined up and waiting for me from my recruiter but I knew that before accepting any of them, I wanted to take time off and learn more about my illness and how to control it so that people couldn’t use it against me. It literally took a few days of being unemployed for me to realise that it was time to work for myself, full time. It was the only way I could justify being off sick for so long because I didn’t have the strength to get out of bed and not feel guilty about it. I needed a job that could work around my illness.

For a long time I wanted to be knee-deep in my business ventures, but the fear of not having a salary and getting paid a large sum every month deterred me for a very long time but you know what they say? Fight the fear and do it anyway. I came to realise that working for myself would be the only way that life would become more gratifying for me. I had no real plan nor real savings to support me – I just did it.

I had already gone back into fashion styling by styling for House of CB on a regular basis and I had started my interior portfolio by decorating my own house, but I didn’t think that both would be enough to get me started properly. I really gave everything to God. I knew that this was something that He wanted me to do for myself but I continued to deny it because I didn’t want to fail, be broke or both.

I had already built the Melissa’s Wardrobe brand that became bigger than me and I couldn’t bare for everyone to see my trials and errors when they already expected me to have all my shit together. I told God that if He wanted me to do it, He would have to meet me half way and boy did He meet me half way. I’ve been met with opportunities that I couldn’t even have dreamt of. I’ve done things that were way past my understanding of my human capability and I’m proud to say that I’ve done them all well. I rarely get sick these days (even though I’m having a bad flare right now) and I think it’s purely due to this new found fulfilment with life that has become my new medicine. People are really respecting me for my craft in a way that moves me so much. I’m literally in awe at the work that God has done and continues to do in my life.

Throughout everything I kept on reminding myself that you cannot be fearful and faithful at the same time. If anything, saying to God that you want Him to do something and still being scared that it won’t happen is actually offensive to Him and His capabilities. When I gave it all to God I didn’t worry about a thing. I never worried about money and I’m STILL getting these cheques. I never worried about someone saying no to me because I told God to tell them that I was ready and that I was great and He did. I believe He made people trust in me before they even knew why they should.

I’m so thankful for everything so far and will definitely keep you guys updated on my upcoming projects.


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Love you all,

Mel x

Black Robe- ZARA

Top – ZARA

Skirt – ASOS

Shoes – Saint Laurent

Bag – Gucci

  • Really great post! Really spoke to me
    When you said you can’t be faithful and fearful because that’s me to a tee! Being a Capricorn I struggle to relinquish control but I have to give it all to God and stop worrying. Your story is a testimony X

  • Shannon Kara

    Really needed to see this post right now, timing is everything! I’m so happy to see that it has all worked in your favour! The Lord is ever faithful and sometimes we really need to let go and let God!

    Shannon //

  • Rami Coco

    ‘You Can’t Be Faithful And Fearful’ is my mantra! Well done sis, so proud of you

  • Great post babe! Love how candid and genuine you are – wishing you nothing but success, love and light xxxxxxxxo!


  • Gladys Bate

    I’d normally read ,take it in, and scroll by… call me a silent reader Mel but this has got me to stop n say well done girl! How brave that is of you to step out of certainty into the new n unknown… your conviction reminds me of mysel and to what’s going on around me now and as ever God is Good!! ….hope u get better with yr illness though … ps: in my imagination u remind me of a younger Jessica Pearce in suits! Lol only bcos u re tall mayb! … lolest goodluck! X

  • Remi Afolabi

    Such a lovely post Melissa. I really admire you for being brave and pushing through with your faith in order to do what is best for you! Wishing you all the best in everything you do to succeed!

    Remi x

  • This is so true, you can’t say you have faith in God yet live afraid, he has our back and with him by our side all things will work together for our good. I follow you on Instagram but this is my first time on your blog.
    I turn 24 tomorrow and I’m about to leave the 9-5 life to focus fully on my interests/businesses: Photography (Food), Performing Arts, Music (I’m a Saxophonist) & Blogging.
    It’s a scary yet exciting step and I know I have to up my discipline and organisation level to fully make the best use of this period. But I’m ready for it and posts like this encourage me even more. Thanks for sharing this.

  • Alma

    Love thost post and the fact that every article I’ve read today has challenged my faith in God, making me want to be better and trust more in what HE has planned for me. This is exactly what I needed to hear.
    Thank you Mel..xx

  • This is actually so inspiring to read.

    I’m a Lawyer, and I work in the City as well, and it’s kind of strange that they terminated your contract for that when there’s so much emphasis these days on flexible working and being more liberal. But I’m so glad everything is working out for you and it’s good to see your faith in God! Well done! Xx
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  • Dee

    Way to go Melissa! Im so inspired. Im glad you took that leap of faith. The best is yet to come, xo

  • Penelope Taylor

    Best post yet. Love this.