Hello everyone!

Wow, it’s been such a long time since I’ve had time to actually sit down and blog and it feels great since there has been so much on my mind of late and I really wanted to share it all with you. It’s best if I just dive right in. My employment contract was terminated (in March) from the Law firm that I was working for for the last year or so. I think it had a lot to do with me always being sick and somewhat unreliable because of my awful endometriosis so even though at the time I was quite upset, I understand now that it wasn’t the easiest for my employers to deal with. In a way I’m glad that they made that decision.

I wasn’t going to be out of work at all, in fact I had three other jobs lined up and waiting for me from my recruiter but I knew that before accepting any of them, I wanted to take time off and learn more about my illness and how to control it so that people couldn’t use it against me. It literally took a few days of being unemployed for me to realise that it was time to work for myself, full time. It was the only way I could justify being off sick for so long because I didn’t have the strength to get out of bed and not feel guilty about it. I needed a job that could work around my illness.

For a long time I wanted to be knee-deep in my business ventures, but the fear of not having a salary and getting paid a large sum every month deterred me for a very long time but you know what they say? Fight the fear and do it anyway. I came to realise that working for myself would be the only way that life would become more gratifying for me. I had no real plan nor real savings to support me – I just did it.

I had already gone back into fashion styling by styling for House of CB on a regular basis and I had started my interior portfolio by decorating my own house, but I didn’t think that both would be enough to get me started properly. I really gave everything to God. I knew that this was something that He wanted me to do for myself but I continued to deny it because I didn’t want to fail, be broke or both.

I had already built the Melissa’s Wardrobe brand that became bigger than me and I couldn’t bare for everyone to see my trials and errors when they already expected me to have all my shit together. I told God that if He wanted me to do it, He would have to meet me half way and boy did He meet me half way. I’ve been met with opportunities that I couldn’t even have dreamt of. I’ve done things that were way past my understanding of my human capability and I’m proud to say that I’ve done them all well. I rarely get sick these days (even though I’m having a bad flare right now) and I think it’s purely due to this new found fulfilment with life that has become my new medicine. People are really respecting me for my craft in a way that moves me so much. I’m literally in awe at the work that God has done and continues to do in my life.

Throughout everything I kept on reminding myself that you cannot be fearful and faithful at the same time. If anything, saying to God that you want Him to do something and still being scared that it won’t happen is actually offensive to Him and His capabilities. When I gave it all to God I didn’t worry about a thing. I never worried about money and I’m STILL getting these cheques. I never worried about someone saying no to me because I told God to tell them that I was ready and that I was great and He did. I believe He made people trust in me before they even knew why they should.

I’m so thankful for everything so far and will definitely keep you guys updated on my upcoming projects.

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Love you all,

Mel x

Black Robe- ZARA

Top – ZARA

Skirt – ASOS

Shoes – Saint Laurent

Bag – Gucci